Wow QuietOne. I can almost feel the intensity of your pain from reading your post. I am so sorry you feel this way. You are not alone. The road to recovery is a bumpy one, but it is one worth traveling. You do have a destination. You do have a future. Though it may not seem like it now, your future is worth going down that bumpy road of healing and recovery. Sometimes we can go that road at 60 miles per hour, but other times, it seems we are laying in the middle of it, crawling on our belly, too weak to even stand, inching up that road, hoping someone else does not run over us.

It is in the vulnerable and difficult times that our courage is made even stronger. We have to find a way to continue down that road. And yes, sometimes we just can't move anymore and just roll off into the ditch. it happens. But even from the ditch, we can still see the road and when we have rested enough and when the muddy ditch does not seem so appealing, we can get right back on that road and keep going toward our healing.

Keep going QuietOne. Not all of the road is so hard.