My first T (T1) I left because I didn't think she could help me anymore. It was extremely painful for me and I would see her around town.

I then moved on to T2 who isn't good with boundaries, I don't feel safe with and I have to leave the therapeutic relationship.

I am going back to T1 now because she is now doing EMDR (the reason why I went to T2 to begin with). T1 isn't perfect but holds excellent boundaries and I need that. I am an abuse survivor and I didn't feel safe with T2 because while she was extremely knowledgeable she was having some sort of negative transference with me (don't quite understand it all).

You will find a new T that will be good for you. Make sure you tell your new T that you need firm boundaries.... and I would get a new T and meet with them ASAP.

Ps - we are here for you on PC