You're right, your feelings are situational and in proportion to what's happening. CONGRATZ on your new job! you can do this coco, even without a chemical safety net. I understand wanting to stay in your comfort zone, even when you hate it, but I like to think of new endeavours as an adventure. And my new motto? 'I'm ready'. For what? Everything! Even when I don't feel ready, I know I am, coz bp'ers were BORN READY, thats how we survive. I'm really happy for you.