Right this moment it is taking every ounce of inner strength I have to not burn myself with the iron. It's been 2 months since the last time I self-injured. I may ramble on here, it's to distract. I went through DBT training and distract is one of the skills. My heart is pounding so hard and fast right now--it's like I'm on a roller coaster and am almost at the highest point before the fall. Pure adrenaline rush. Fighting it is so hard. I don't know if I can do this.