Lady_Dragus,
The more I think about it the more I feel it was most likely the way I feel. I have a hard time feeling as though I fit in...For example, I live in a town that I have lived in for 7 years... I do not know my neighbors... I know two people in this town that if I had to call on someone for anything all I could do is hope one of them are home because if not I have no one else here to call...I don't go outside ... well I don't go out of my bedroom for all that matters... so being social is hard for me. I think I was just feeling sorry for myself and not feeling welcome was how in my mind it worked itself out as.