Yea you guys are right. From now on when the thoughts come in I will tell them where to go. Honestly I think its good to put your stupid paranoia out there instead of sitting with it in your head. I won't say I am the smartest thing out there but I'm not stoooopid either...I am so smart, SMRT!!!! But this honestly really bothered me, still does a tad. I have a feeling I am repeating myself over and over and over today.

My family member has Major Depression with psychotic features. I always was a lil paranoid but since her theories were thrown down my throat I think I will always be on edge about the government and people spying. Is saying government on here a triggering word? I can sorta see it being one with some ppl. Sorry if I triggered someone.

Tell me if this is weird, I'm in a talkative mood right now sorry. My piranhas have been dying one by one for the past week (down to 5 well 6 still but its gonna die). With the first 3 hubby left them in there to die incase the other ones will eat it (don't know if cannibalism is their thing or not). So I asked him tonight if he would put it out of his misery because they obviously won't eat it and it obviously is going to die. He said, via text, ya I will kill him in the morning when I get home from work. So I said if it was too hard for him to do, he is pretty attached to all his fish, I would do it for him. He asked how and I said scoop it out, put it in a bag (it's dying so no worry about it biting really, except for a last attempt at life) and I will take it outside and bash its head in with a 2X4. I thought this was a good idea. He came back with "Holy, I will do it". Was that a mean thing to say to him? or mean thing to do to the piranha?

Wow its almost 3 and I am wired...must sleep because, well just because lol.

P.s. I am sorry that this is not bipolar related but when I am like this I feel like you guys are my life coaches (well some of you lol). Good night peeps xxoo