A new puppy is out of the question, my dad has made it clear that he doesnt want any other pets.

hes not very well today, see, what happens is when he drinks, he gets real moody, then when he goes to bed he cant sleep cos of the drink, then he has a panic attack which makes him even more uptight etc, then he gets up the next day feeling ill and tired, so he drinks to escape it. thats how he gets into his alcoholism. i wouldnt ever dream of mentioning AA to him, he would get so cross if i did, and thats the last thing i need to do is to upset him.

ive been out most of the day today and i got home about 20 mins ago to find him sat in the living room in the quiet holding his stomach, and i have just been told he isnt feeling well today (feeling sick) so my betting is that he had an attack in the night and has now made himself feel ill. it is sooooo frustrating because theres nothing i can do that can help him. its quite sad really, ive lost one parent to drink and my other parent is a borderline alcoholic...what an example to live by, ay!