Emptty I am so proud of you! I think you are doing the right thing. I think you should find a new T and make an appointment as soon as you can! I agree that a female would be a GREAT idea to help you. I am so proud of you, I can't even begin to imagine how hard this must be for you, I am so proud of you!!!!!!!!! Feel free to PM me if you need anything. I'm not sure where you live but I'm sure there are ethical Ts there.