Well... I have a woman in my life and it is 3 years as of this month. I won't go into specifics as how it looks like and everything, but what I can tell is that this woman is definitely a woman with a good heart, but during these 3 years she has "only" tried to take suicide 1 time in total where I know it definitely was for real. I didn't feel so good about that, but she didn't do it (luckily!). It was about money and she was unhappy about that, so unhappy that she had strong feelings about not to continue to live.

From what I know about her, that is that I must always try hard to never judge her, and always show respect even though when she does not (at times), because for me it isn't really important who is right or who is wrong in different arguments, and focus have always been set to help and support each other, that's the thing that counts, in my opinion, and I tend to repeat that to her whenever we are in an argument, and it usually calms down that way.

She needs a lot of positive feedback every day, and have a tendency to think that everything is always about emotions, although sometimes it is not, I've felt confused at times, not really understanding how she was thinking.

So a person which involves emotions in, everything, every word and in every discussion, could she have the borderline diagnosis because of that? I know I probably shouldn't speculate, but I'm curious to whether that could be a sign. When she is OK, she is more emotionally stable, but inside her I've always felt her to be suspicious on me whenever I act in the way that she perceive that I haven't been honest with her about something. It's been a pain these 3 years, and every day of it has it been worth it. I am struggling to make it work, and we are both unemployed persons, and that makes it difficult at the present. We are not living together in physical.

I've been paying her bills and everything for 3 years now, and my next step at the present is to try with help organisation somewhere so they can try and help her out. I am not allowed to tell where she lives, and I know she is paranoid about that, so I cannot say or write anything about that.

So I am worried today because I am unemployed (since june of this year), and it has been difficult getting a new job and it affects our relationship in a bad way, I wish times could be better! I search for approx. 30 paid jobs each month and I spend a lot of time doing this, I'm doing everything to find something, and when I do (which I don't know yet) our relationship can go back to begin getting better again, if she survives this...