...it's happened again!...and I am not surprised. like a virus this online world eats into my already damaged social skills and I cannot assimilate and it happens suddenly.

I have poured my heart and soul out here and I just feel unreasonably crap about it I don't expect to feel otherwise someone like me does not belong here ****ed up as I am is not a free pass to acceptance and I really don't ****ing know what I am trying to do save the world save my dumbass ****ing self I don't know I don't care.

I hate this place I hate the world that made this damn place I hate myself I just ****ing hate heaps of **** and this is what I love

and **** it all thanks for reading thanks for everything thanks for nothing I don't even know who the **** I'm talking to ?

monkey out of here

james out of here