It is funny how I can sit here and give support to others but I can't pull my ownself out of this hole. now that I am back on the meds I have to wait to see if they will work and I have read that some times going back on with the same meds is not effective. Wish I had some of the love, comfort and pride others have. Wish I could feel proud about being a parent (heck I have a child in med school). Wish I felt that I had a place in this world. I just wish things were not so hard and that I could stop pretending to be happy just to please everyone else. Right now all I see is more darkness coming my way and no exits.