I might work up the nerve to ask him. For now I'm just going to leave it all until our next session. Like you said, I do not want to set myself up to be hurt. Sometimes I think I am though, I feel like I am already pushing him too much. It's not conscious but I want to know he is safe and won't leave.

I more look at my T like a father figure. My Dad emotionally abandoned me when I was 9. I have never had a healthy normal relationship with a man because of this. I would get myself into very unhealthy and abusive relationships with men because I learned that men are not for good feelings. That being pushed away and hurt was normal. That love is pain. That is what I deserve. I have never told T this. He might read between the lines though on this one..
He is slowly showing me what a normal relationship with a man is like. I really, really need that. I don't know if he knows I need this, but it's what is happening. I think I would feel unsafe if I started looking at him in a romantic light though. It's hard not to idealize him, because he is a beacon of 'normal' in a pretty disruptive past. Establishing safety is so key to this working out.

I hope your GP doesn't go anywhere either. It sounds like you have a good relationship with her. Those feelings do sound confusing though, but they are normal. Talking about it helps.