Leaving T is going to be so hard. I don't know if I can do it... but I plan on trying. It's just hard when there's nothing to fall back on. Life is already stressful. I never wanted to go to a female T(I'm more comfortable with men) but I guess that's my only option because any male T would refer me to a female if he knew I was screwing my former T!

Ugh, gonna be too difficult. I figure it could turn out 1 of 2 ways. Either I go and quit or I go and screw around with him again and decide to stay. I don't want to quit without seeing him one last time. He means a lot to me. I feel like I'm losing the only good father-figure I ever had.