Oh arianna, I'm so sorry for your loss.
It's so hard when we can't be there with our loved one.
I offer up some sites that might be of comfort. You can light a virtual candle in honor of your loved one, or write a virtual memorial.
I hope you will find some peace.
Petunia
http://www.gratefulness.org/candles/enter.cfm?l=eng
http://www.griefnet.org/memorials/memcard.html
http://www.angelsonline.com/
http://www.virtual-memorials.com/