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Happy birthday! Mine just passed a couple weeks ago. It was one of the better birthdays of my life. Stayed in bed until noon, then stayed on the couch until 7pm, then went to dinner with my fiances parents (and was lectured about the amount of money I will be spending on the wedding, which is not much at all, but the dinner was still nice) then went home and got back in bed and passed right out at about 10pm.
Last year, when celebrating my birthday (like 5 days later) was when I had my first seizure, the year before that (5 days later as well) we were driving out of town to get me a birthday present and my car was totalled, the year before that I was literally attacked by my oldest friend and a "good" friend, pushed around hit and all kinds of things... I could go on and on but I wont. My birthdays have all been terrible, so this year I decided to expect nothing, do nothing and just be lazy, it worked. As far back as I can remember I've had bad birthdays. I think a lot of it has to do with my state of mind, there's something triggering about my birthday. I was anxious about this past birthday even knowing I was staying home most of the day alone. I was still really anxious about it, but it turned out well.
I wish your birthday was better, I know how hard it can be. Don't feel bad that you were in a bad mood, remember the song "It's my party and I'll cry if I want to", seems like most of my birthdays that song is replaying in my head.
I hope today is better
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I'd lock my hands behind my head, I'd cover my heart and hit the deck, I'd brace myself for the impact if I were you.
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