Hugs (((((Tinkerbell)))))! Prayers of peace and forgiveness! So hard to end with things unresolved this way with your Mom. Very hard to have a child struggling and blame yourself, I'm in the same spot with my son. Maybe the blame does not belong to you and regretting does not change things so you need to forgive yourself. An obnoxious neighbor is a bit too much under the circumstances, they should be ashamed of themselves! This is probably not much help but sending thoughts of peace and healing to you.