This is going to be a bit immodest, but I have to get the point across. You will forgive me.

I have whined enough on this board about my body shape. Thanks for listening and support.

All the while, I have been the owner of the most beautiful yet unruly hair which can easily be turned into my biggest asset with the help of some dexterity... which I lack.

D. (friend/former lover, a poet): hair like Dante's Beatrice's.

Medium length, chestnut, with reddish highlights. Natural curl. I use an expensive line of hair products formulated for curly hair. I go to a salon that specializes in curly and wavy hair (and pay for it). My hairdresser studied under a person who studied under the author of this book that made a revolution in curly hair design. She sends me off with a gorgeous head of hair. And... I cannot emulate her work at home. I am not dexterous; I am awkward with my hands. Someone else, instead of whining, would have learned how to blow dry and style hair. Not me. I am also lazy. I just let it air dry. Of course, it is healthy (heat damages the hair) and one of the reasons, besides genetics, that I have such high quality hair is that I air dry it. But I have a blow dryer with a diffuser - that should be safe. I just do not use it, and when I use it I cannot reach good results. I keep saying to myself: "Go to YT, watch some videos on blow drying techniques" and ****ing do it, do it for 10 minutes every day like every other woman does it without even giving it a thought! Nope. So my hair is either a mess or a pony tail/braid, neither of which does it justice. And every day I think that I should start learning to style, but I keep postponing it. Unlike weight, this is totally within my control; I just lack some necessary motivation.

Maybe someone can send some motivation my way?