If I tell myself I CAN'T drink at all it just makes me rebel against myself, eventually. If I just don't bring it into the house or have it on hand then it's more of a , when we go out to eat I can have a beer or a glass of wine with dinner, I don't always but if I want to I can. My partner drinks on occasion with a meal or a few in a social situation. I just don't want it on hand in the house as it becomes an option if I have an emotional response to something I don't want to deal with or I'm bored or whatever other crap I'll tell myself. I live in a dry county so in order to get beer,wine or liquor I would have to drive a good distance. instead I'm going to talk with my partner or journal or work in the yard , something constructive. I don't want alcohol to be the center of any activities, as it is a depressant and i am goong through some rough childhood abuse stuff in T. Does that make more sense?

I could belying to myself but out of sight out of mind is working so far.