I haven't got any trauma or abuse in my childhood or adulthood, and never had a traumatic thing happen. I just acquired severe depression for some reason! I can relate a bit to all the big dramatic things that others write because it happens for me, just at a smaller level. Anyone can have a rupture,etc.

I can relate to your post in that there was never a time I was "normal" or "happier" and I think that's made it harder for me in treatment. It wasn't possible to go back to a time when I was happy, because there wasn't one! People asked me what made me feel happy when I was "normal/happier" and the answer is always "toys" (I was 10 or 9 the last time I was happy or normal!".
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e have to basically make up a self out of nothing, whereas other people aim to get back to how they used to be. Both sound pretty darn tough to me!