Why is it easier to laugh than it is to cry?

I just want to stop feeling like I'm drowning. I want to be happy I want to be in control, I want to stop feeling like c*ap.

I want people to understand where I'm coming from, I want someone to say that they actually care.

I'm a failiure. Even if I'm not. I still am. I'm wrong, you're right.

Yeah right, depression is just something you can snap out. *end sarcasm*

I want to crawl into bed and just stay there. I want to quit, but if I do then a lot of people will wind up hurt, and nobody deserves pain except for me. I can handle it. Or not, obviously.

Stop rambling.