Wasn't sure where to put this because I don't believe this is abuse, maybe it is "neglect".

Anyway, as a child, I never felt "protected/nurtured." Not to write a book about it, I was just wondering if there are any "effects" of lacking nurturing/protection as a child. And could it have any effect on one's adult life.

I was over protective of my children. I was also protective of my husband and always overlooking their "abusive ways"..blaming myself as an adult. Being blamed by others as an adult.

Sometimes I try to "figure" me out. What my deal is that makes me this compliant twirp that when pushed to the extreme, profanity fly from my lips that would make a sailor blush. And I hate hearing profanity let alone let it fly from my very own lips.. But that only happens when I am "startled" or "feel trapped or frightened"..

Neglect prob made me perfect prey for that childhood sexual abuse. Not sure why I'm so compliant other than whoever trained me did a great job.
But then again, maybe none of this has anything to do with the me that I turned out to be.. I hate pointing the finger at others or the past. But just wondering if neglect and/or lack of feeling protected/nurtured effects ones wellbeing and growth as a child