Sorry i haven't been on in awhile. i've just been taking things day by day. lately I have just been ignoring all my problems and pretending that they don't exist, just so I can have a peace of mind every once in awhile. Sometimes it works, other times not so much. I've been having a lot of anxiety thinking about what's going to happen when I have the baby. I know I'll have to put my ex on child-support but I don't want to give him a chance to take me to court about him receiving rights to see the baby. I has really been bothering the crap out of me because I don't want him in my life or my babies life. The closer I get to having this baby the more depressed I get because I have no control over what happens to my child once he gets here. It scares the living hell out of me. I feel like I have no control of my future and that leaves me feeling very suicidal at times.