lola are you running from yourself? i'm glad you're recognizing your self-destructive addictions. exercise-within reason- is a healthy option for anyone. eating healthy. etc.
if you go to therapy-i forget-you can challenge those feelings you want to forget. by getting to the root/cause of those feelings you can learn coping skills and also identify false beliefs about yourself. some of mine were: everyone must like me or i'm not worthy, i screw up everything anyway so why try?, nobody really loves me they just want to hurt me, i'm never good enough, i don't know how to live like everyone else, i'm different and need to hide it, etc.
yes looking at ourselves and the obstacles are/can be painful. but the truth is many things we are trying to forget are not real facts. we just think they are.
my T helped me untangle the mass of my irrational thoughts. this was the major cause for me to use alcohol. i didn't want to look at any of my feelings. they terrified me. so i numbed them and found i was drinking more and more to make it work for me.
it's positive to strive for more healthy behaviors but if we don't address what's bothering us it will surface over and over and the unhealthy cycle begins again. does this make sense? i hope it may encourage you to toss that self-destructive sack of feelings off your back. it really can be done.having a T to work with you is very helpful.