Yes, I got halfway through your initial post and was having a very hard time understanding what you're trying to say. Unfortunately, it frustrated me so much that I couldn't continue reading. Periods, at the very least, would definitely help people comprehend more of what you're saying.

I also agree with insideout on their opinion of you seeming manic. I'm coming to that conclusion because of your rapid, unorganized, lengthy posts which could indicate your mind is racing uncontrollably.

I'm not trying to be a grammar nazi or anything, I'm only trying to offer some constructive criticism in the hopes that more people will be able to offer their input and support.