hi rainstorm...i can see where ur coming from...i had similiar feelings around a year ago. i've struggled with dysthymia (a milder form of chronic depression which is probly just as bad as severe depression because it goes on and on and on...) for 7 years,possibly more...but it's finally started to come right in the past six months thru good, consistent therapy and the right meds as well as making positive changes in my life. so yeah, u can and will beat it, it's slow and frustrating at first but it will get better.