I don't want to be a person.

Is it true?

I think this one is about failure. I feel incapable socially. I expect everything to come crashing down even while it seems to be going well. If someone is angry there is no fixing it, no possibility of making them understand or "working things out". People are determined to make me pay when they have misinterpretted and will not let go of their misconceptions. I was at one time verbally unable, I could barely speak let alone explain. This I think is partly from the church counseling center confrontation groups, partly from my eldest brother proving to himself how smart he was by talking circles around his little sister and twisting my words like some vicious lawyer. So this is a can't do it, over my head type thing. Also I wonder if there is brain damage from the concussions and maybe I am never going to be able to communicate effectively verbally.

Can you absolutely know it's true?

It feels true sometimes, when I am exhausted emotionally and don't want to continue.

Who would I be without this thought.

Maybe I would keep trying to talk to people who aren't listening or maybe I could just walk away and be at peace that I have done what I'm able to do with in my limits.

Turnaround:

The person I am is good enough