(((Open)))
I am so sorry you are having to deal with this.
First and foremost YOU ARE NOT A FAILURE!!! You are dealing with painfull emotions and stressfull circumstances right now. (((Breath gently))) You are very delicate right now.
I hear your frustration...this is simply more stuff added on top of EVERYTHING else. It can be so overwhelming.
I do not believe there is ANYTHING wrong with you wanting to be informed on the status of your case. This is normal.
If you can take a deep breath and remind yourself this does not need resolution RIGHT NOW, today, tonight. Try to rest and regroup... you can get through this. One day, setback at a time....it's the only way.
I'm so sorry. I wish I could offer more.
We are here...I am here...cry, vent, SCREAM........
Many hugs