Bebop...I hear you..was worth a shot..My hubbys Dad still works and he is pushing 79..hes the fulltime doctor I was telling you about the other day...he thinks if he stops moving..he will literally STOP moving..know what I mean..hes a funny man..well..hmmm..I don't know sweetie..hopefully things will work out for themselves..my mother was the type that was always giving giving giving to other people..ask Jenne..she knows her..she sounds like you..always being pulled in all directions..alwasy doing what everybody wants of her..but not of herself..always thinking of herself last..because to think of herself first was like the worst thing she could possibly do..The question Bebop is..What would YOU like to do? Honestly..if you could choose without thinking about anything or anybody..what would YOU do?