I don't think that is sad..That is sweet..that is a mother..a giver..unfortunately..you have lost yourself in the middle of all that giving..and well..somehow Bebop needs to be found again! My mom did it..she lost herself..BIG TIME..but she needed too..she needed to loose herself to find herself..does that make sense? and when she did she just blossomed..and now she is this beautiful creature..not that she wasn't before..but if you knew her then and then know her now..she is the same person..just DIFFERENT..she found herself..shes happy..shes at peace with herself and who she is..just like I am now..and you MUST know how difficult that had to be for me..but its not the same..I was never a giver..not like you or my mother..so I cant compare..You..You live for others..you give of yourself until there is nothing else..until you are so exhausted you can't even sleep..am I right? so what is left after that? You give to your grandson..your daughter..you husband, your father..and now you want to run to Kansas and please your husbands father too..Why? What would happen if you didn't?