I am experiencing it, and its making me think I'm going to irrationally murder everyone, its obsessive thoughts dont scare me anymore, but thats the reason I'm scared of, I read articles about serial killers and stuff, which got me kinda scared of becoming one. I dont want to be one, this backdoor spike s so invisible, but its still there, I feel normal but with a bit more thoughts on my head as I go. How do I cope with backdoor spike?