Thinking today will be last meeting with T. There's no point in going to therapy anymore when not getting better and just getting worse. Can hardly leave this place anymore....meaning my apt.

My T is the most wonderful person that have met and gonna be hard to say good-bye, but think it's for the best. I just have no fight left in me and it's not fair to her for me to go see her when I am not fighting anymore. It's just wasting her time.
I'm tired of all this, tired of me, i hate me so much.

Think have already given up, so think everyone around me should too. Not even sure how to say good-bye to T, just go in there and tell her I guess. Will be seeing her in a few hours and then that's it.

I'm sorry to all that is reading this and has been so kind and has had such words of encouragement....I'm tired...I feel like there is no more to me, nothing to fight for anymore.

Thanks again and sorry
jen