She's a counsellor/psychotherapist. I don't really understand why she can't help me any further, i think she's concerned that i need more support and expertise that she is trained for. She's mentioned before about a psychologist but i can't afford one. She has said i can stay with her until i find something else and even after but she just wants to make sure i have the right support. I think she's prob right, i need something more like psychodynamic or something, something more directive maybe. I don't know. But i'm so bonded to her and it just hurts so bad right now. I know she's allowing me to keep going to her but really what's the point if she can't help?

I can't even remember everything that happened in that room, but for the 1st time ever she asked if i wanted to do breathing exercises because i was so anxious. i said no to that. I feel sick. Abandoned. Angry and hurt. I couldn't even say bye as i left, i was just so upset.