Thanks DD.

I'm afraid I'm heading towards catastrophic thinking. I can already tell I'm going to start pushing him away before he has a chance to hurt me. It just came out of nowhere. I have no reason to believe that THIS guy is going to do it, but I've enough people give me the "I like you, but" brush off that I don't know if I can handle another one, or if I can handle getting my hopes up and he turns out not to be how he represented him self.

I didn't even start thinking like this until we got home and my daughter started talking my ear off because she didn't come with us this weekend. I felt instantly overwhelmed and almost regretted having fun because it meant I'd crash once the daily grind started back up.

I'm sick of being pessimistic and feeling hopeless.