I hope that you are doing some better today. But I know how hard it is to be alone & then feel that you could have done something to have stopped the situation from happening.
I know that loosing a kitty or any critter that we are so close to is very difficult. There is nothing worse....( I think it is harder than loosing a close person). For some reason, the unconditional love from our critters just can't be replaced & there is nothing like that kind of love. I don't know if you can find another kitty that needs your love to bring into your life....& it ins't replacing the one that died. There are other kitties that need a loving home & it sounds like you are a very loving person that another kitty or creature really needs you.
My american eskimos & my horses are my life.....& I know that loosing my foal this year (it was either born dead or died immediately after birth) was horrible for me to deal with. I also remember that one of my eskimos had a puppy. It kept having problems & then got away from Mom & got too cold. It was too late when I realized that my eskie wasn't producing milk for the baby. I still blame myself for not realizing it sooned...I could have saved the puppy's life.....but I lost it. I know how horrible the feel is, but I guess once I found another creature that needed my love & care, I realized that I was valuable.
Your love & ability to care for your kitty (that is awsome that it lived to be 22 years) is wonderful & you are a wonderful person that has alot of love to offer to another critter to so badly needs love. There are so many in this world that are out there, needing the kind of love that you have.....it would be horrible to deny others of your love.
What you have is valuable....you are a wonderful valuable person....& that is really the point......think of what you have to give to other critters that need the kind of love you gave your kitty. It is a way to honor the life of your previous kitty.....giving of yourself to give another kitty the kind of life that your other kitty had. You are very special to be able to care that well for a kitty & give it a long & loving life......
Remember there is a point to your life.....it isn't over when there are so many in need of you. I know a lady that takes in kitty's that are in need of special care & love that wouldn't have anyone & wouldn't even be alive without her care.
Please don't feel that there isn't any point to your life.....you are a valuable, loving, caring person & you are needed.
Love,
Debbie
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Leo's favorite place was in the passenger seat of my truck. We went everywhere together like this.
Leo my soulmate will live in my heart FOREVER Nov 1, 2002 - Dec 16, 2018
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