Did you ever consider marriage counseling? I just wonder what kind of T your H is if he doesn't care about you? Sorry if I'm intruding. It just makes me very sad that your H, a therapist, doesn't have compassion for you. I wish your T would come back soon, but more than that, I wish your H would care, or if not, that you had others in RL to hold your hand and hug you. Is there anyone at all other than your T?

P.S. Can you volunteer at a day care center or somewhere you can get and give hugs? Or a hospital?