You are very welcome. It's why I'm here.

I don't think he's upset per se...I just think he realizes the gravity of the situation, you know? Just like he's your first, you are his first. That's a very big milestone in anyone's life. He very likely feels that odd guilt that you do, and that's what scared him off. It doesn't mean he doesn't love you or regrets giving that part of himself to you. It's just a heavy realization to comprehend with someone that young (though I'm only two years his elder. I'm speaking as if it were me).

I am still very condemning of anyone who pulls the up and leave routine, but I think I understand his position a little better now. I do still think you have a right to be angry with him (lol I am, if we're being honest), as even if he was scared, he failed to consider what his not being there would mean for you, and the hastily scribbled note left behind didn't help. But it is very possible he simply panicked, and wasn't thinking clearly.

I would stick to my advice to talk to him about it, specifically why he did what he did (leaving and the note) and how he feels (about the sex, and about you two as a couple). At the very least, I think it will serve to clear the air, and will set you both at an understanding as to where you stand, in addition to definitely helping clear your mind.

And do forgive the obligatory paranoid post but...if you two continue to see each other and remain active, please be safe. Please?

Please take care, and know my heart goes out to you.