My lesson is to check in and read posts to keep up because if your not really participating for a week this place takes off like a rocket. Well, I am caught up finally. When I came on here today I didn't have anything to say and didn't feel like it. A few posts really pulled me out and I had to reply.
As for me, I'm still in Norway. Still separated from my husband, havent found a way back to the states. It's been good for me to be away. I have seen my husband almost every day and we have had good talks. He wants me to stay, begged me to stay, said he realized he was taking me for granted, knows that I am not asking for anything much just a normal life and to be included in his life, will do whatever he has to or can to make my life good here if I stay etc etc etc. I believe he is sincere but I dont know if he can follow thru. Now I am more confused because when I left I was leaving but now that he has seen "the light" I could be walking away and making a mistake and I will always wonder "what if". Not wanting to wonder "what if" is what got me here and now its what is making me think about staying. I just dont know. I dont have a place to stay after this weekend. I havent gotten financial support from any family or friends. I did get an offer to use a car but that comes with strings attached which I cant agree too. Most of my "friends" sent emails saying "sorry to hear its been bad. Take care" I havent heard anything from most of my family and the ones that I did hear from think I should stick it out. My sister in law offered me a place to stay but my own brother didn't, he said I should stay with a freind (the only other that offered a place) even though it's well over an hour from a larger city and 1.5 hours from any other family or friends.
Confused, lost, feeling a little alone.
Life wasnt supposed to be this hard anymore.
Well, I am still hanging in and taking it one day at a time and baby steps. Those are the best words of advice.
Welcome to the new people and hello to all you "old" ones.
Heidu