thanks guys for your advice. the 1 thing try very hard with zombiette is being a 'mother' round the girls. It is hard sometimes, but easier than it used to be. I hate them to see me 'under the weather' in any way, so keep all the 'darkness' away from them. Even more so since i separated from their dad (4 mths/a lifetime ago!!). I have to show them strength. I hope that after a major meeting tomorrow i will be able to talk to my nurse about this stuff- i just cannot afford for it to be out in the open with anyone here at the mo coz of CPS being involved with the family and the meeting tomorrow...