Hi, I have struggled with binge eating and being bipolar, since May of 2011. It all started when I lost the state championship my senior year of high school. That week, I lost all of my self respect, self esteem, felt hopeless, and I really felt powerless. I identified myself as a lacrosse player and to lose in the biggest game so badly made me question my identity as a person. I gained 30 pounds in about five weeks. I just ate all day. I alienated my peers at graduation and prom and other related event by having gained so much weight so fast. However, I lost it all at a summer camp I worked at for 10 weeks. I ate a low carb, low fat diet and pretty much only whole foods. Fast forward to my first semester in college, I let fear and stress cause me to binge eat and drink heavily and again and I gained 25 pounds. I lost 15 pounds, but the weight kept coming back. I've taken a year off to deal with bipolar and get myself back in playing shape. But recently, a medication I was on made me get to my fattest. Now I am losing it, but more slowly than I would like. I log my food eaten, eat only whole foods, but I binge during the night when I hardly know what I'm doing. I need help to stop this so I can go back to school in the Spring with confidence!!!