Sounds like you and your T's relationship wasn't exactly healthy. Maybe you should find yourself a more caring T. But from your description, I would say it sounds beneficial that you dumped him, and I even go so far as to suggest that you should have dumped him a while back and got yourself a better T. (I'm not slighting you here or anything, I just want you to get better and I don't think your T was helping you in that - it doesn't sound like it anyway.)

RIP Dexter...

<font color=red>The best dog ever!!!</font color=red>