Thank you. Still feeling very low. I have to be in the office today, so I'm going to try and call T at lunch time. I know Weds. are her busy day, but she usually takes an hour for lunch around noon. I can go out to my car and call her.

I'm safe, and I'm not going to act on these feelings, but having them really, really sucks. I tried reaching out to some friends last night, but then I put on my "I'm fine" face, because I didn't want them overreacting or worrying about me. So, that wasn't as effective as it could have been. It helped a little to just get outside of my own thoughts, but it would have helped more if I'd been able to be honest with my friends. That's the worst part of feeling this way, for me. I've always kept it hidden, and now, I don't know how to show these feelings to others and ask for support.