I would strongly suggest NOT DATING. You lack the level of maturity needed to sustain a healthy happy relationship, you'll just end up causing misery and crushed dreams for you and the poor unsuspecting gf.

I'm not being mean. The fact that you've completely ignored every ounce of advice, and twisted every bit of info to fit into your warped sense of logic/reality is testament to my 1st statement.

Do yourself and future Mrs Anthony a favour and get PROFESSIONAL help... Once you UNDERSTAND that your perceptions are skewed, you can work towards rectifying them, and this will lead to a much better future than the bleak 1 you are now facing.