I guess wasn't really hoping to find advice anyway. I just needed to vent that. I don't necessarily feel that I'm conquest to this guy. I just think that he can't imagine the harm because he's not a woman and he hasn't been abused the way I have. I just hate how I always seem to be the one who is trying so hard to understand other peoples' motivations and accommodate them. He even said that he likes me but doesn't think that with my background that his preferred relationship style would be good for me. Now I'm feeling agitated because he burst my bubble. It's not often that I like someone and I was just enjoying the feeling without worrying about the future. Now I feel like I've been asked out and dumped at the same time. I feel disillusioned and hurt like my past is being rubbed in my face as a reason why I can't have nice things. I don't want to be a prude...I want to have fun just like everyone but I can't and that makes me feel alone and left out and ashamed of who I've become. This sucks.