Every one has done such a swell job in telling you to be strong and don't let shame define your destiny. I to have most of the same issues but I take it day to day and have to believe that the shame is covering up something else. Look within yourself (it's best with a T) and try and understand the shame , the body issue and your depression. It is funny how the answer could be as simple as a ddressing the depression so you can have a better insight into things. Take a minute and be grateful and proud of the things you have done. {{{{{HUGS}}}}} keep posting