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Old Aug 15, 2012, 01:20 PM
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Originally Posted by Perna View Post
Not taking control?

It's hard to learn to get out of one's head only. What do you feel, if you think about not even having an only plan, not saying, "I don't know what to talk about or address;" but waiting until you get there, in the room, sitting, to check how you feel about being there, how your T "looks" to you; what has happened here, at work, at home, with traffic on the way? Find something you feel/felt, and open with that?

Sky, do you know about active and passive voice in grammar and writing? http://grammar.ccc.commnet.edu/grammar/passive.htm Taking control is kind of like that; it's "let's see what I come up with" rather than "let's see what she comes up with."

All parts of our lives are parts of our lives. All parts are good, to be lived through, not just endured. The hard parts can teach us better than the easy parts can because they require more work. Before a hurricane, some people are buying supplies, boarding up their windows, getting alternate heat and light sources, etc. Other people are planning to party until the lights go out or just waiting until the lights do or do not go out and then, sighing, (this would be me :-) mostly complaining about the lights being out and scrambling to figure out where to go and what to do to find comfort.

One does not really have to "plan" before hurricanes, but giving it a little thought, "What was it like for me the last time, what would I change?" and just doing a few "natural" activities that match what might feel good to you in those circumstances (no one else can tell you what would feel good to you) and you can live well during hurricanes. You have fire wood and marshmallows, plenty of blankets and a couple of battery blow-up mattresses, so you "camp out" in front of the fireplace instead of running around frantically trying to find the candles and a lighter source?
Sorry it's taken me so long to reply to this amazing comment. Perna, I am always very impressed with your insight.

I guess I wanted T to try something new, something bold, something possibly outrageous to tap into a part of me that all my planning would not be able to do I suspect. I guess I wanted to see magic in action. And magic has happened in session, when I least expected it. But, this time I just felt like I wanted to be led completely and enjoy where the ride took me.

What happened was a bit awkward. I know my T is doing what is best. I know she knows that whatever comes up for me is what is most important at that moment. Very rarely has she insisted on addressing a particular topic. And those moments were critical moments for her to take control.

She is very wise when there is a necessity and when she sees no urgency for her to lead.

So, even though initially I was resistant to talking. There was so much going on in my mind I could not determine which was the most important. But, by gentle questioning, I did indeed talk about what was needed.

The session ended up flowing and was natural and I gained a lot from it. The whole contol/no control issue may come up again. Normally I am self-propelled because I have so many thoughts and so many emotions that they just erupt during session.

It was just this time I felt a need to kinda 'give up'. And I did 'give up' and still it worked. My T is awesome!!!!!