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Originally Posted by Rohag
Hello & Welcome, Exit0617!
- family history of depression & suicide
- good physical health & social life
- traumatic parental divorce at age 7
- mononucleosis at 13; possible depersonalization experiences
- poor experience with Zoloft
- possible self-medication
- obsessive thoughts and anxiety
Skateboarding and socializing are important; hold on to them.
How similar are your current feelings of being "out of it" to the depersonalization you felt during your months of mononucleosis a few years ago?
Ideally, it would be good to link up with both a medical doctor and a therapist/counselor. I understand your privacy is important to you. Your age may make it more difficult to secure confidentiality, but this is something you can verify at first approach to a professional. During the past decade some US states have passed laws that extend or strengthen confidentiality for adolescents in some instances.
Again, Welcome!, and please keep posting. |
Thanks for your response! I havn't really had any real depersonalization besides one or two episodes around the same time i had mono. These were full blown totally lightheaded looking over myself type deals. Im not sure if im psyching myself out or what but i just slightly feel "out of it" at times, like a quick lag of perception or something, or everything just looks somewhat different. i think its more of the depression and me not understanding it. Because feeling "down" for no reason at all is a new feeling im just confused about. and when i get caught up in anxiety im thinking so much in my head and not about whats around me that i think i mildly get those feelings. Im probably just self diagnosing and making things worse. And i get into these anxious/depressed episodes (when i wrote this) where everything just seems so bad. But once im out of it i feel normal to an extent.
Anyway, on my way to the skatepark yesterday (in the 85 degree weather) i just felt weak, sick, and my side started hurting (normally im fine with the heat, but i couldn't even handle it) and i was just done with all this (did i mention i'v lost 10 pound?) i didn't even want to skate at all. so i ended up calling my grandma yesterday and im staying with her a few days until i can get into a doctor/therapist. is there anything seriously wrong with me? will i be better or worse in the long run? what are your guesses? maybe im blowing everything up and will be fine? besides feeling a little down iv been fine since iv got to my grandmas, even very happy at times, feels good to address the issue!
im concluding that my marijuana use has been covering my symptoms, and stopping is bringing them back and im just over it. What are all your views on anti depressents? My grandma says i need them, i probably do. But i'v heard nothing but bad about them. Can i occasionally smoke marijuana while on them? Im very responsible about it.
on a last note, the reason i feel "crazy" is i sometimes think about weird things that stress me out "how is a cat living" "how is earth here?" or the best "am i psychotic and everyone around me knows?" (i'm not convinced or anything, just spooked out) im a christian and believe gods word, but still.
THANK YOU AGAIN!