I feel bad about being off work for my depression. It was very bad. I'm on several meds now. I wake up thinking about work. Feeling guilty, I was off last year also. I dont know part of me doesnt want to try to go back it was so bad this time around and what must people think. I try to tell myself I dont care and tell others that also but I do. The other part want to go to work and not sure if I'm crazy because I did this last year and this year was even worse. I dont know if this make any since to anyone. I have seen Phyciatrist for about 20 years I have been diagnosed with depression, bipolar, and borderline tendancys.