Hi exit0617, I also have a family history of problems. I can relate to the thinking you have cancer. Feel free to get on this site anytime, maybe that can give you some help. I have depression and anxiety. I do take a anxiety medicine and it helps alot. I also take a antidepressant effectzor, probably not spelled right, but anyway, I couldnt take zoloft either. I think the pot smoking is probably a way to relax yourself. But since its illegal you are taking a chance there. It would make more since rather then smoking to try a different antidepressant. effectzor is good for anxiety also. I;m not a doctor, but trying to give you my expierence and hope