((((Mr.V))))

Maybe you should try using a few different resources at the same time, rather than putting all of your eggs into one basket. Like, go to the senior center to voluntarily visit and/or entertain. The CNA's and RN's will slowly get to know you for the man that you are.

Second, make one or two "pure friends". Don't unload all of your traumas onto each of them. Share some little parts of yourself slowly with them. Be there for them to do the same with you. Try not to put such hope and intensity in your friendships. Let them grow very gradually.

Lastly, give yourself a break. Maybe your meds aren't working for you and you need a little tweak to become a little happier and less hopeless. Hold onto every bit of hope that you can see!!