Well, Trippin, I hope you don't have more paranoid thoughts, too. I have them all the time. If people are whispering I automatically think they are talking about me. I automatically think people will dislike me the moment I meet them. When I had my first son I was completely convinced that he would not love me even as a tiny baby. I always feel like people are making fun of me or putting me down. It's horrible and I don't wish it on anyone.